Recharged

Ok, I was mentally very tired when I wrote my previous post.

After a 30+ min daimoku, I felt myself recharged already.
And after a 2+ hour band practice, the whole stressed feeling is no longer there.

Not that problems are solved, but that I no longer feel that they are insolvable.

A Well-Deserved Break

I need a break.

From everything.

From everyone.

Including the me that people thought I am.

Quite desperately.

On and off I’ve been having this thought since don’t know when.

But I can’t.

Cos I can’t.

And cos there’ll be even more to handle after a returning from a break. And there be more things-that-I-need-to-handle-which-I-don’t-know-how-to-yet-I’m-expected-to-do-it stuffs.

I need more slack-and-do-nothing-time.
I need more do-what-I-want-to-do-time, not do-what-I-need-to-do-time.
I need more daimoku-time.

I need time to find the ‘me’ in myself.

But, life can’t restart from 0 just like that.

Quarter-life crisis at 28?