First thing, an edit for the previous post: “Thank you Aaron for publicizing my concert at your high traffic blog.” I only saw the post today.. 
Suddenly, I missed the Jacuzzi pool that I had in the past. How I wish I could just lay at the pool, and allow the water gushing out at high pressure hit my back and neck. But, I no longer own it.
Ok, so now I’m back into action. After a super tired day on Sunday, I didn’t allow myself to stop. I started to think. Think for SNCO’s future. I started to put in action. Gathering ourselves to plan for SNCO’s future. Thinking for my district, my YWD. Getting my act together.
With this change of mentality to put SNCO, my district and others first before myself, I’m not dwelling into a “oh so pitiful me” mindset. I’m become more determined, more happy.
Just Monday morning, I was still very tired physically. A hangover of tiredness from Sunday. But come Monday evening, when I start thinking of what I can do, how I can help to pull everyone back, not alone, but with everyone’s support, my energy came back.
I believe I still haven’t replenish my beauty sleep yet, but I’m not that tired already.
All because put others before myself.
So the questions I have for a friend are:
- Have you been reading Sensei’s guidances recently?
- Have you been putting in enough daimoku recently?
- Why are your tweets so negative? So shallow? So not you?
- Why are you doing kosen-rufu so unhappily? You are making others unhappy. And you are making yourself unhappy.
- Do you know it hurts to see you 钻牛角尖? You’ve helped others out of it. Jump out of it yourself too!
- You are (too) strict to others. Are you strict on yourself? And being strict doesn’t means being rigid.
- In case you hadn’t been reading Sensei’s guidances, below are what I’ve searched for you. (Wanted to reply you on twitter with one of these, but all are too long to tweet.)
To fear hardships and resent our environment is to live with the belief that the Law [Dharma], the power to change, is outside our own life. Buddhism starts with believing in the great power of the Buddha within your own life.
Buddhism teaches that when we change the “single element of mind”–our fundamental way of thinking–we transform ourselves and our environment changes.
If you become passive, you will find yourself restricted, regardless of how free the environment is in which you live. Conversely, if you maintain a positive, proactive attitude, you will find yourself free, no matter how restricted your environment. True freedom is the caliber or spiritual capacity that enables one to cope with any circumstance.
It is senseless to blame others or your environment for your miseries. Change begins from the moment you muster the courage to act. When you change, the environment will change. The power to change the world is found nowhere but within our own life.
Ultimately, we are responsible for our own destiny. It may seem to us that our fate is predetermined, whether by our genes or by our environment. What really matters, however, is how we can improve ourselves from this moment forward, how we can change the circumstances that we find ourselves in. This enormous transformative force is what Buddhism is all about. In this struggle lies the source of never-ending youth and vitality.
I want a happy you back.
